Someone's diary

                                                                                                                               /03/2013

It's afternoon or that seems in my living room, I shut the windows, the lights disturb me more than a rancid hangover, I haven't got some nice sleep in days, I just woke up crying fountains, and lay down my head again sobbing. I don't know whats wrong you know? I'm just getting tired of noticing, kind of believing that I was this little replacement of another guy, of some old songs... Who on earth sings in your ear the song that a  few yesterdays was meant for someone else? No one have ever gived me a mixed taped otherwise I have left broken songs spread around someone's room, and I left the songs as they were. Broken. A broken gift can't be glued and given to someone else  I... I don't know what she's playing, but I love torturing myself more or less, I get dizzy just by thinking about it...  *Ring ring* here is again another missed call I don't wanna answer, this shit has been ringing all day but, although it's not with her ; it's me, I've been fighting the unfightable, I've been fighting the chances, rejecting the probs, competing to someone who is no longer there ... *Ring ring* (He left the pen down close his notebook, and at last took the phone)

- Hello
-Hi lovely kidnapper
-How are you love?
-Fine, just worried because I couldn't find you anywhere
-Yeah, I was just thinking ...
-'Bout what ?
-Just... nothing
-Oooh c'mon tell me
-Really it's just... Promise me something all right?
-Whatever you ask I promise
- If by some chance I go, if by some chance my heart breaks, my mind collapses and my breath cuts, just don't ever took steps back like you did before, like when...  when...you know what I'm trying to say...
- You mean... Oh my love, you know I don't think about that in a long, long time I have told you that a bllionth times, and don't ask me that. Not now, not ever. If by some chance you go, your heart breaks, your breath cuts I will took all the steps back I needto find you, to fix everything broken and collapsed. You know I love you more than anything in the whole world, and so you know I'm never gonna leave, so stop circling that in your crazy interesting mind. Okay? I love you always 
-I love you always too. May I see you in a while? 
-Of course babe 
- Then I have to hurry, I pick you up. I love you 
- Me more 
-Bye
-Ciao

(He opens his notebook, and write at the bottom of the last page)
                                                                                                                      23/03/201

-Everything is ok.... She loves me right? There's nothing else that could matter.